A mOM trying to Survive ❣️

We become Mothers and we are thrown into the bucket of: You should know, Judgements, Shame, Guilt and so much doubt .

When experiencing a form of Perinatal Mood and Anxiety Disorder (PMADs) small simple tasks become much more complexed as we carry doubt and fear.

Experiencing PMADs myself, I often felt like I was watching someone else’s life, I was just in the background on the outside looking in. It wasn't easy, I didn't have all the answers and the guilt and shamed consumed me. I was just trying to survive, one day at a time.

Maximiliano at 10 months old. Somewhere in Long Beach, Ca. Photo by the talented videographer Daniel Mendoza

Very disconnected from my body, mind, emotions, spirit and sadly from my baby. I was just watching and trying to make sure my baby didn’t get hurt, as I lived life through the eyes and feelings of a shell, felt very empty and alone. Till this day I look at my boys in disbelief, of how the FK did I do it, and we all survived.

⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ Support is the Answer! A Tribe of Women just like me that understand the way I was feeling and that they were going through the same situation and feeling the same way I did. Learning the right tools that worked for me and my baby. Therapy, Medicine, Support groups, they all thought me that I was Strong!  and that this would not last forever! and that truly kept me going. ⠀

⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ There is Great Support Great Organizations that care and are available for YOU and your Family right now, here are a few :

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